Dear Sammy..

Your my best friend and I love you so much. But it bothers me that your friends with her. She talked SO much shit about the both of us. Why do you constantly forgive her. She lies, she talks shit, and she hates the both of us. What don’t you get? Honestly, if I ever did any of that stuff to you, you would hate me forever. She did it many times, why don’t you hate her forever? I constantly get mad at you for it, but I never have the guts to admit it, cause you will hate me. But just tell me, why? Why do you still like her and talk to her? She hates you. Remember those times you said you hated her and will never talk to that motherfucking bitch. You lied, cause now shes like your best friend. Well, your my best friend and I don’t want her to hurt you or steal you away. Just remember, I will love you WAY more. Love you Sammy, but I warned you.

Friends&Stuff

Thank you!

Destiny..

Everyone should have
a friend like you
You are so much fun to be with
And you are such a good person
You crack me up with laughter
And touch my heart with your kindness
You have a wonderful ability
To know when to offer advice
And when to sit in quiet support
Time after time
You've come to my rescue
And brightend so many
Of my routine days
And time after time
I've realized how fortunate
I am that my life includes you
I really do believe that
Everybody should have a friend like you
But so far it looks like
You are one of a kind!

Thank you for helping me out every single day!

LoveQuotes

“It’s funny how the people that hurt you the most, are the ones that swore they never would.”
-LoveQuotes

The thing is.. I don't know what I want, or need, or even what's best for me.. My heart has a gap and I can't fill is. I know I have to let go and be strong, smile every time I see you and be happy if you are.. but what if I can't? Some days are better than others and even though my friends try talking "he's an a**hole", "let him go, he's not worth it!" and "f*ck it, you're young, pretty and you have moves.. you can have another one anytime.." into me, I'm suffering. Well guess what? He's not an a**hole, I know him better than anyone else on this planet, he is worth it and even if he wasn't.. I couldn't let him go and I don't want another one.. I want him. I just wish I could forget him like he forgot me.. :/





“The first person who’s on your mind on the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason either of your happiness or pain.”

“And I wonder if you ever stop to think, man, I miss her.”

I may have failed but I have loved you from the start.”

Today is turning out alright..

You say sweet things like that and it makes me like you all over again. Why must you be so complicated? Last night was weird. I don’t know what to feel towards you anymore. The thought of you leaves me cold and at the end I don’t want to end up hating you. I’m just done with you in that way. You obviously have some baggage and she won’t go away, not that you mind. So just let me be and stop fighting for me or calling me yours. You can’t have the both of us and I’m not gonna fight, that’s just stupid. Doing me and I mean it this time.

Is that really me? Or was that me? People change..

Little gigs are awesome :D

I hate when stupid kids from my school tell me how much better raving and partying is than going to a rock show. You know what? No. It's not better. While you're getting "fucked up" I'm having the time of my life, singing along to songs I've fallen in love with and have listened to through hard times. So, I'm real fucking sorry my "shitty little gigs" aren't "hardcore" enough or trendy enough for you. Just keep in mind, while you're hungover the next morning and wishing you hadn't lived last night, I'm wishing I could re-live it again.

What do you love about yourself?

My hair and my capability of dancing is the one thing I will always love 'bout myself!.. Well unless until I'm old and my hair get's gray or even white and my moves will be crappy 'cause I can't move anymore.. oh let's hope it'll never get that far :D

It's important to love something about yourself..so what do you love?

Funny childhood experience

I grew up in a college town, and one Halloween our doorbell rang and we opened the door expecting to see trick-or-treater but what was in front of our open door was another door! Like, a full-on wooden door, that had a sign that said “Please knock.” So we did, and the door swung open to reveal a bunch of college dudes dressed as really old grandmothers, curlers in their hair, etc, who proceeded to coo over our ‘costumes’ and tell us we were ‘such cute trick-or-treaters!’ One even pinched my cheek. Then THEY gave US candy, closed their door, picked it up and walked to the next house.



I think the person who takes a job in order to live - that is to say, for the money - has turned himself into a slave.
-Joseph Campbell

Your first love.

Dear A,

You have such a huge chunk of my heart. You made me feel like I was living in the clouds. Your face is what I wanted to see every single day of my life. You treated me like a princess-but that’s in the past now. I just hope you’re happy with the choice you made because seeing you sad or unhappy will still be the hardest thing for me to witness.

Love,

Your Past

Updates

Sooo I finally got the time to chill out a bit and I figured I probably should blog something about my tour..

Well let's just say it was insane! I was in Germany, France, Italy, Spain, Netherlands, Finland and Sweden.. and booy I had just the best time ever!

Prudence, Katy, Jenna, Joline, Lore, Destiny and I were dancing sooo much that we really had to force ourselves out at night when we didn't have a show!
We had loads of fun and and that was a lifetime experience.. I thank all of them for being sweethearts and for not annoying me to much ;)
I didn't really take pictures..sorry for that

Mah book..

I’ve started writing this book and I think it’s kinda lame but the people who’ve read it say they love it and that I inspire them but umm yeah. My friend Stevie wants to know how i write so good but I don’t think its so flipping fantastic. They are just words my mind are combining to form into the story of someone who either exists out there somewhere or is just a plain figment of my imagination.
Here is a bit from the book which kinda of tells you what it’s about… Kaitlen says it to Jake.

“Well you see I have this fear. Anthropophobia, it’s the fear of people. My whole life I spent it coming and going from a nuthouse. I was fearful of my own reflection, of my parents and anyone who came within 100 metres of me. But I have a strong passion for drawing and I have to say I am kind of good. I’ve always drawn things that are dark, things that go bump in the night, until one day I drew a couple. This couple they were well, kissing. My father saw it and we discussed it and I told him I wanted to experience the real world. I wanted to kiss a boy and I wanted to go to school with other people.” I paused as I saw how focused he was on my story. He gestured for me to continue. “Well then dad told mum about it and the next day we went back to the nuthouse, explained it to the doctor and he told my parents they actually have a special medication for this sort of things which sort of numbs the fear. A week ago I turned 16 and coming to school was my birthday present.” I finished my story; Jake was mulling it over in his head, thinking how to reply.

Don't understand

Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don't know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don't know because you talk as if you're fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you're not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don't bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.

Hey, you know what?

Jack: Hey, you know what sucks?
Lindsey: vacuums
Jack: Hey, you know what sucks in a metaphorical sense?
Lindsey: black holes
Jack: Hey, you know what just isn't cool?
Lindsey: lava?

The point of living and of being an optimist, is to be foolish enough to believe the best is yet to come.

- Peter Ustinov

Early Saturday morning thoughts..

It occurred to me that when I started that blog I had more e "Diary-kind-blog" in mind.. that quickly switched to pictures of all kind.. now I know that a lot of people prefer looking at pictures and go on to the next blog, simply because it doesn't cost as much time! But I like spending time with my thoughts and now that I am home again I have a little more time.. (I'll maybe post something about my insane tour) It's kind of important to think about life sometimes and on my tour I had more than enough time for that.. so I'm going to blog quotes and songs and more thoughts again.. (:



That song is simply amazing! I could listen to it the whole day.. (: love it!



Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
-John Lennon

E.T. go home

Rumors..

She may have blonde hair, wear fake nails, and hang out with the boys.. But she also comes home every night, puts on her glasses, ties back her hair, and reads her books. Labels are for soup cans, not people.
Destiny, I love you!


And that's what she said:
Haters are always spreading rumors; “I” did this, “I” did that. Well guess what? “I” don’t give a fuck, now go spread that.

Don't give up!

I was looking for a boyfriend. Who would keep his promise’s. Who would stay up late with me watching movies and pigging out on junk food. Who would tell me to come somehere to meet his friends. Who would not act different towards me when his with his friends. Who would call me out of the blue for no reason. Who would respect me. Who would tell me I’m beautiful when ever he see’s me. Who would notice the little things about me that not many people notice. Who would know my hobbies and the songs that I like. Who would always know when I’m down and know what to do. The list is endless... and guess what? I found him! So to everyone out there:
When you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love! Have faith. Restart, just hold on. It's worth it!

Bad blogger

It's official: I'm the worst blogger ever.. :P
I'll try my best to blog as much as possible .. boy a day really should have 2 or 3 hours more!

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has to Offer

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

Long time no..write

wow.. it's been a long time! well anyway I've been like the busiest girl on earth in the last couple of days!
I've been busting my ass of, working on my new choreography for my next show. My feet are hurting sooooo much, you can't even imagine! anyway i totally forgot that i even had a blog! i just ate breakfast and now i rushing to rehearsal. It's really cloudy out here.. muuh i'm no liking this. liking is a funny word.. is it even a word? like funner! funner so should be a word but it actually isn't! boy i say that aaaall the time. well anyway i'll blog a little more again when everything's over and i find a little time for it.. there're probably a lot of typing mistakes there but i'm so in a hurry and i absolutely hate writing on the iphone. i'll post a new quote, song or picture soon. i promise! well no one cares anyway right?

♥

FanninEleven

Check out their Youtube-channel (FanninEleven)! They're really good! I watched every video at least twice and I still get goosebumps. So great!

xoxo Roxy

Are we human or are we dancer?

I would believe only in a God that knows how to dance.
~Friedrich Nietzsche

Useless blog..

I like rings..



Let's go fly a kite up to the highest height!



yeah it's bad..



Yummy!



First time I find her pretty..!

Moulin Rouge

I watched moulin rouge yesterday and it's definitely one of my favorite movies.. the music is so powerful, it gives you so much energy. The end is really sad though.. I actually pushed out a tear or two.. and that doesn't happen really often.

The movies I reeeeeeally like are:

• Moulin Rouge
• Dear John
• Mary Poppins
  
• Volver
• Notebook
• The Shining
• Grease
• Factory Girl
• Step up (because of the great dancing, the story is boring)
• Titanic
• Juno
• The Wizard of Oz
• The Godfather
• Dances with Wolves
• Pulp fiction
• Star Wars (don't laugh..)
• Dirty Dancing

Great movies!! I get goosebumps just thinking about them!

Things I couldn't live without..

Love is all you need..

We changed music taste, we changed style, we changed hair color, we changed school, we changed friends, we changed interests, gosh.. we changed! But what never changed, was our love to each other.

I'd rather be ugly, poor, stupid and loved, than the other way around.

Because honey, I love you! I love your smile, I love your hair, I love your way of playing guitar, I love your voice, I love your style, I love the way you look at me, I love your eyes, I love absolutely everything about you, even your jealousy! I'm forever yours.. ♥

Even I am bad sometimes..

“I think I can deceive people. I'm like, the nice, sweet girl when you meet me. And I don't have any bad intentions. But I'm a bad girl too.." -Alicia Silverstone

What happened?

I'm just drifting apart from everyone i used to be close to. I don't know why. I was looking at pictures the other day and saw myself with amazing people that I kinda lost.. that made me sad. :(

Summer, could you please hurry up!

I want summer to come. I want to explore forests and drink lemonade. I want to meander around with people I think I love. I want to be covered in dirt while wearing shorts that might possibly be too short. I want to take pictures of everything. I want to sneak into pools and hide from the cops. I want to chase after skateboards that won’t stay underneath my feet. I want the sunshine to beat against my back. I want one final hoorah.